July 6, 1996 - exactly 15 years ago.
Waiting for the school bus, I was knocked down by a speeding car - but I survived with just a badly injured leg.
That accident totally scarred me for good.
I was leading a perfect lifestyle as a high school student. Just turned 14, I was full of energy, totally focussed on studies, sleeping early by 10PM, waking up early at 4:30 AM, and studying for 1 hour in the freshness of morning,followed by half an hour of brisk exercise, and then leving to catch the school bus.
I was totally determined to be a topper that year in class 9th. I was making great friends. I was getting better at street cricket with every passing day, playing with my childhood friend every evening for 1 hour.
But for that accident - it not only scarred my leg, but left me bed-ridden for 3 months - missing a term exam, and hence crushing down my all hopes of being a topper.
My healthy lifestyle was shattered. My studies and exercise routine were tattered, to say the least.
I was never ever the same person again - however hard I would try.
I was never able to wake up and study with same zeal early in the morning. I was never able to play cricket as good as I was before that accident. My walking style had been damaged permanently - I was mocked at for the same throughout my school life all the way upto class 12th.
It is so true. Death tends to come when you are living your life to the fullest.
Waiting for the school bus, I was knocked down by a speeding car - but I survived with just a badly injured leg.
That accident totally scarred me for good.
I was leading a perfect lifestyle as a high school student. Just turned 14, I was full of energy, totally focussed on studies, sleeping early by 10PM, waking up early at 4:30 AM, and studying for 1 hour in the freshness of morning,followed by half an hour of brisk exercise, and then leving to catch the school bus.
I was totally determined to be a topper that year in class 9th. I was making great friends. I was getting better at street cricket with every passing day, playing with my childhood friend every evening for 1 hour.
But for that accident - it not only scarred my leg, but left me bed-ridden for 3 months - missing a term exam, and hence crushing down my all hopes of being a topper.
My healthy lifestyle was shattered. My studies and exercise routine were tattered, to say the least.
I was never ever the same person again - however hard I would try.
I was never able to wake up and study with same zeal early in the morning. I was never able to play cricket as good as I was before that accident. My walking style had been damaged permanently - I was mocked at for the same throughout my school life all the way upto class 12th.
It is so true. Death tends to come when you are living your life to the fullest.
If you die - you die a happy man, but if you survive - then the life afterwards is almost a hell.
Since last 15 years - I must have wished for death at least 1500 times. But, well it will not come.
NO - I am NOT going to try suicide or other such b*ll***t. I have survived death once - don't want to take any more chances. I want a natural death - some fine day - I go to sleep, and thats it.
Right now - I am fed up with my life - and yes, DEATH WILL NOT COME till I start LIVING again - which in all possibilities is impossible.
Out of curiosity, I just tried www.deathclock.com and it predicts my date of death as
Tuesday January 27, 2032 - 5 months short of turning 50.
Lets see how things go. I would definitely write a blog about it a day before that day.....
Waiting for Death ........................
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